To Michael Brown’s Mother

I woke up this morning and saw the fires.

Sometimes in the light of heavy media coverage, I try to detach myself and remove the influences of the reporters and television stations. There are always more sides not being covered for every one side that the media reports on. But this isn’t about the media.

This is my heart reaching out to Lesley. The woman that bore the child who was lost to this tragedy.

Why to you specifically, Lesley? Because in this immediate moment your face is the face of every mother who is raising a son right now.

When we, as mothers, hold our son in our arms that first time it is a moment that cannot be put into words. A mother’s instinct is fiercely protective. A real mother would die before letting harm come to their child. In that moment of first contact there is a feeling of panic. Suddenly the world is a living breathing monster and we are the Slayer straight out of a movie charged with the protection of Earth’s most precious cargo.

Days go on, months go by, years push past. We go through trials and tribulations. Tantrums, battles of will, defiance.. And every day, we — the mothers — look into their faces and see the bright eyes of the infant we carried inside of us. Flesh of our flesh. Their heartbeat, our own. They pull away and we are left grasping at tiny fingers that have become the weathered hands of an “almost-man”.

We send them into the world and are confident that we’ve done all that we could…… didn’t we?

You are the face of every mother, Lesley — standing at the window and cursing that child. It’s an hour past curfew. Where is he, damnit? 

He thinks you’re smothering him but three blocks away, a young man is shot dead. Another killed in a car accident because of a drunk driver. A teenager his age is missing 30 miles away, his car “left abandoned”.

You’re screaming at him because he thinks he’s a man. He stands there defiantly, chin held upward with his chest thrust forward like a lion. Yes..a lion. My lion who I fed, clothed, and provided for. My lion who I put my own life down for to keep the hyenas away. My lion who must now go into that jungle and earn your own scars.

He shouting, “You don’t understand!”

You’re right. I don’t understand. I don’t understand: violence just to be violent, opportunity wasted, why you don’t listen! why you are pulling away, why you won’t get out of here and be the Lion I raised — the KING of the jungle, not the fodder of the pride, why you don’t see how amazing you are…why are you hurting yourself! why are you in a hurry! Wake up, son….wake up.

The media fills the airwaves with pictures of your son smiling. You remember that moment. You could talk for hours about that day as if it were yesterday. Meanwhile everyone watching rolls their eyes and sighs because they’re playing this again.

Another photo..He’s so crazy.  He is making that face and leaning into you. The same way he did when he was three years old. You smile. We (other moms) smile. We relate.

Next frame is the salt and injury. The video depicting him as just another street thug. The “judgement” because he threw down lyrics to a rap song. What boy hasn’t said things that would make their momma want to wash their mouths out?! The judgement is so heavy across the country you feel it. They judge you, your family, your values, your morals…your Lion.

Be still, mother. Do not let them take this from you. Push their voices and their judgement away into the universe. Breathe in deep, clear your mind, and find within you the child who you have lost. It’s not about the media, the lies, the judgement…this is about your baby. When the ashes fall to the earth again, you will have your moment to rise but right now this is about you and him.

I’m writing this to you Lesley because when others were burning down businesses after you and your family so courageously asked for peace —  I would’ve been filled with rage — they didn’t come to you and put their arms around you.

You lost your Lion. The heartless jungle of animals took him from you. The jungle did. It is un-feeling, dangerous, and cold. The other animals have set fire to it in your Lion’s name but we know it is not to honor him. They are destroying his home, his memory, and any good that might have come from his death. The jungle takes, and takes, then takes some more.

There are no words of comfort. The grey ashes that dance and float on the acrid air of Ferguson are a symbol of the hope and loss that you, and all of us, have suffered. So I’m sending out a little flicker of light your way, hoping that somehow, someway …my spirit will reach yours.

A mother’s love does not know color, race, religion…a real mother ..one who is born and bred to hold the heavy invisible crown upon her head — sees only another mother who has suffered a loss that each one of us fears the most.

I will cry with you. I will mourn with you. In spirit, and in love I will embrace you.

It is my hope that anyone who has lost a son, friend, sister, brother, aunt, mother….anyone.. to violence — please — reach out to one another. You are welcome to post a name, a prayer, a thought to anyone you’ve lost to keep their memory alive. I’m calling out to mothers, especially, because we have to protect our children. 

The Unsaintly App, Now On GOOGLE APPS!

I feel so fancy and accomplished 🙂 Now you guys can go and download it right from the Google Playstore.

Click HERE and collect your VIP Seat to all things ME and The Unsaintly 🙂

 

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The Unsaintly App

Everyone that sends in a screen shot of the app on their phone to my FACEBOOK will be entered in a drawing for any of my e-books! Random drawing! Random times!

 

 

PromoteHorror.com: The Unsaintly

Sharing a shout out from this awesome site. Check them out!

http://www.promotehorror.com/2014/11/the-unsaintly.html?m=1

Announcement for New Series! 2015

Announced earlier by the Lovely S.C. Stewart on our Facebook Pages and Twitter!

I hinted at this before, but we’re making a formal announcement: I am teaming up with the phenomenal Lisa Vasquez, author of The Unsaintly, to bring you a paranormal serial in 2015. You won’t have ever read anything at all like it. If you‘ve read mine and Lisa’s work this is a fairly natural conclusion to two bodies of work, by two complete strangers, who seem to have taken the same items of inspiration and went in totally different directions: Lisa with The Unsaintly, and me with Hounds of the Lord. You don’t often stumble across people who know you instantly, and Lisa and I took one look at each other’s work and were floored. How can two people, who have never heard of each other, never heard of each other’s work, take all the same inspirational items and write two bodies of work which are so the same and yet so completely polar opposite? There is only one word for that sort of serendipity: fate. We’re really excited about this collaboration while we are both also still bringing you our own individual work. You’ve already had a bird’s eye view of my working on Domus and Lisa is taking the prologue of The Unsaintly and building an entire world, the likes of which, trust me, you have never seen before. 2015 will be a big year for this team, keep an eye on us!
Photo: I hinted at this before, but we're making a formal announcement: I am teaming up with the phenomenal Lisa Vasquez, author of The Unsaintly, to bring you a paranormal serial in 2015.  You won't have ever read anything at all like it.  If you've read mine and Lisa's work this is a fairly natural conclusion to two bodies of work, by two complete strangers, who seem to have taken the same items of inspiration and went in totally different directions: Lisa with The Unsaintly, and me with Hounds of the Lord.  You don't often stumble across people who know you instantly, and Lisa and I took one look at each other's work and were floored.  How can two people, who have never heard of each other, never heard of each other's work, take all the same inspirational items and write two bodies of work which are so the same and yet so completely polar opposite?  There is only one word for that sort of serendipity: fate.  We're really excited about this collaboration while we are both also still bringing you our own individual work.  You've already had a bird's eye view of my working on Domus and Lisa is taking the prologue of The Unsaintly and building an entire world, the likes of which, trust me, you have never seen before.  2015 will be a big year for this team, keep an eye on us!

Book Signing!! (edited)

(I edited this because I tried to write it before going to sleep.. Bad bad idea lol)

Hey guys! I’ve been hard at work but I wanted to take some time out and keep in touch with you. I have a few things going on..

First, the sequel to The Unsaintly is around the corner. Now that it is out and just .99 on Amazon.com everyone should be able to find some change to afford that, right?

To raise some discussion about the book I want to tell you some things about the first one. I guess the first question everyone asks is, “what is the book about?”

This question always caused me anxiety because I didn’t know how to summarize it without giving everything away. I will try to be very careful about that in this discussion but I give you no promises. Tread carefully. Read slowly! Lol

The Unsaintly is the first book in a planned series. This book was a thorn in my side because I debated on putting it out as it was or to continue further into the story. Mainly, my biggest concern was that it was a short book by usual standards but if I continued on, it would end up being longer than I wanted. It would touch on details too soon that would give away or confuse the reader. This being my first book I decided to make this my shorter book to cut my teeth on and see how it was received. It also gives the reader a chance to decide if they like me, my style of writing, etc.

The best thing about it, to me, is that people seem to really love it.

So what’s in the future?

Well now that the “traditional” real life aspect of the book is over, it allows me to open the door to the story lurking beneath.  The twisted  world of Shakespeare meets the Exorcist. A world that is complex and elaborate that the reader can fall into. The characters will start to become more fantastical as my version of Genesis and Revelations comes to life. Even more frightening though, is the nemesis who Isabel must contend with. In the first book, she had only God and Lucifer’s petty age-old bickering. And if it seemed a little uneventful that’s because it really is. Their war hasn’t even begun.

I think unfortunately, people don’t understand that The Unsaintly isn’t about Isabel and her stigmata, nor is it about her possession. It’s about what what all those things have created and prepared her for.

The Unsaintly really is.. just a long prologue to the war of the Gods – to the likes of which many have never seen, or expected before.

I hope that you enjoy the book and I  hope  to see you all at Katy Budget Books on November 29th! .. I will be the signing books and giving away prizes!

You won’t want to miss it!

November 9th Woodlands Texas

Hello everyone!  Are you looking for something to do this weekend?  How about stopping by the Lonestar Horror And Pop Culture Convention in the Woodlands?  Support your local artists and have a little fun while you’re at it. We’ll see you there!

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Amazon.com: All Things Zombie: The Gathering Horde eBook: Chris Philbrook, T.W. Piperbrook, Ben Reeder, H.J. Harry, Jack Wallen, Eric Shelman, Glynn James, Kevin Fitzgerald: Books

http://www.amazon.com/All-Things-Zombie-Gathering-Horde-ebook/dp/B00PD6M7ZW/ref=la_B00MF34PFQ_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1415437033&sr=1-4

Proud to be among such great company in this collection of short stories!